I find re-reading my old writing to be refreshing. After years of not looking at this particular one, I can now look back with hindsight’s wisdom and hear the subtle lessons. So much noise takes up the present moment – it’s impossible to grasp the underlying currents running through. But now, I’ve now forged my way further in, molding into something slightly better with each choice along the journey and I can see progression with even more depth and clarity.
I wrote this 4 years ago, closer to the beginning portion of my spiritual awakening. I highlight wonderful techniques that I’ve all but forgotten these days. The doorway and it’s alarms have morphed into something truer to my vision and heart, which is a latticework of love/light – however this is a complex structure with deep understanding needed to really empower it; so for beginners who are finding it difficult to even sit quietly with themself, then this blog should offer some super helpful ideas and practices.
The following is an excerpt from an original blog I wrote back in 2018 – read the full version here.
Finding My Way
Today I wanted to write about alignment and finding my way. I have been reflecting a lot on my life and how I got to where I am now and where I want to go in the future. This kind of introspection has lead me to a place of gratitude in which I have never been before. I am able to stop every morning and each night and thank the universe for all I have – not in the half-true way I used to but in a fully accepting and utter knowing kind of way.
The way you think in the present will become how you are in the future.
I have heard this line of thought recycled in many ways by many people along my path of self discovery and evolution but now I’m witnessing it in action and it is a whole new world.
In previous years and cycles of my life I have been a rather negative person. I had these constant reminders I would repeat internally to myself which cemented my view on the world. Things like:
I'm not a pessimist, I'm a realist. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst. Life is hard or life sucks. I guess I'm just not meant to be happy. The good guy always finishes last. I don't have the time/energy/money for that.
and my all time favorite example – my thoughts on my health:
I get migraines all the time. My (insert body part) is killing me today. I just have anxiety/depression.
All these tag lines used to circle through my mind on replay all day long. There were a quite a few more but I won’t bore you with them. My point here is that one day I began to just try out changing those negative thoughts into positive ones.
I got to a point where I thought, what the hell? there’s no harm in trying some positive self talk – if it doesn’t work I’m no worse off than I am now.
And so it began…
Self evolution is ever expanding process. There is no end I’ve come to see. The joke was on me. I thought at first a time would come and I’d be “cured”. I thought there would be a point where all the sudden I’d feel different and I would know “this is working”.
Nope. It crept in silently, slowly.
I now think that process of refereeing my thoughts constantly was a sort of starting point – like a new door. This new door to my mind is guarded – not in an oppressing way with huge walls and scary guards like before but a simple detector.
This new door does not allow those negative, doubting, jealous thoughts to come in. Immediately my alarms sound and those feelings get dissected, accepted and dismissed for what they are. I replace them with empathetic and understanding versions and in they glide through my new door to my new world.
Yes, this was exhausting and at first I thought the traffic would never end. But now my thousand or so alarms that used to buzz are down to maybe 10 a day. The quiet is a prize all in it’s own. At first I thought who am I without all the noise? And that’s when I started telling myself who I wanted to be.
I am a being of light and love It feels so good to be alive I am blessed I am wealthy beyond material measures I am intelligent and compassionate The world is full of good people I am grateful
- oh the list goes on and is always being added to.
Now those auto-reminders of positivism have become natural thought. Now I live in a world where good things happen to good people and the nice guy always finishes first. Now Karma is my friend not a silent enemy I work to evade.
It is my hope that these techniques which worked well for me, will also help others! If you’ve read this post and you resonate with this topic and struggle, let me know if a reply below! If you’re trying out something similar but in a different method feel free to share that. Have you actually tried my technique? If you did – please tell us about your experience with a reply.