Yup, the title pretty much sums it up – but for those interested, or even more plainly to simply release a bit of my own mental anguish; I will continue on here and describe my current realizations and struggles, as well as complain in general about my uncomfortable position. Thank you so very much if you continue to read on and if you, too, are experiencing this kind of inner battle of wits and ego then I hope this blog can be like an extended arm, offering a friendly embrace to comfort us all through these kids of lessons.

It all started back in 2016, I think – but could have been early ’17 – I will have to go back and check my original notes; (Yes, I handwrote a number of chapters over the course of a few sleepless nights when the initial plot idea burst into my mind and I have continued to retain hard copies of all sorts of creative content throughout the process of wiritng over these last years.) Anyways – as I’ve mentioned, I was hit with this brilliant idea for a futuristic story which was based on, what I felt back then was a fresh and rather unused premise: the internet ‘chip’ being installed into humans and it becoming common place tech which completely takes over and changes what it means to be human and live on earth.

Now, don’t get me wrong, I totally value independent creative interpretations of themes, concepts and scenarios - I’m referring to examples like the template of The Hero’s Journey, the plot points never get old; no matter how many renditions of a story are made to fit it. But, with this particular genre and the timing taken into consideration, I am running the risk of looking as if I’ve jumped on the band-wagon, riding the mainstream, tidal wave energies that are no doubt going to be crashing onto the world for quite some time to come.

And that is one thing I would like to never be associated with; I’d much rather allow that project to remain on the back burner until the hype dies down. However, I must admit, (and I’m sure you can understand the feeling,) the biting blow to my ego is truly what hurts the most. It seems a little anticlimactic now that I type it out, which I’ll take as a good sign, meaning my irritations have softened enough for me to start to see the big picture view.

There is a certain connection made when you create a thing, any ‘thing’ really – but the ‘writing a story’ type of thing creates an especially complex and entangled connection. I’m sure every author can relate to the many levels of immersing one’s self into their own little fantasy worlds, building scenes, developing characters and creating the overall message. All these aspects have their own special requirements and opportunities for the creator to discover the story (and by extension the Self and its inner workings) even further.

I’ve spent a ton of hours defining and creating all types of fictional parameters for this novel particularly but in general, I really enjoy ‘world-building’ and creating strong depth through background information, so it’s not like I feel ripped off, as if I’ve wasted my time – on the contrary, I feel it was time well spent and a very worthy plot. Which, kind of increases the sting of resentment my ego feels, knowing I have to stick this project on the back burner for a while longer – but also, I see that I’ll be able to anchor into the structure I’ve already built and that foundation will continue to call me back, because it’s that interesting to me, plus there’s the thousands of words I’ve already written which I am very happy with to keep me motivated with the project.

But still, even with having this as my main perspective, I can admit there is a bit of residual negativity lingering around this novel for me. I’m struggling to decide if I should even continue to write it mainly because it is getting too real, and I was not intending to write a pop culture type novel.

Yes, the plot line is set in the future, long after the chips have been pushed into every corner of society across the entire known world and that is a bit of a different take on it still, I’m sure – it’s becoming more of a prophetic, predictive type of plot or timeline with this story, running too parallel to real world potentials that I feel it’s too iffy to even solidify it as a complete work yet.

It’s like plotting out the potentials of what society, what the people, what these almost real scenarios could and may look like, if it got there, and it has felt too much like writing a live action role playing, choose your own adventure type of interactive novel which blends history, current events and future potentials into a foggy, dystopian nightmare which, at the moment, also feels more like a 3D pop up book of illusions than a plain old sci-fi novel.

I guess this is half the battle with writing topics close to your heart – you tend to get wrapped up in them! Well, maybe this Elon Musk Neuralink thing is the best thing that has happened because it sort of makes the choice for me, because now the entire topic is under review in the mainstream and more people will be discussing the ramifications and scoping out the potentials, both positive and negative.

I no longer have the edge I once felt but that does not mean the story itself doesn’t have value or doesn’t need to be told. I do feel the messages within it are so much deeper than just the basic set and setting details and I know the main character is worth reading, with a complex history and mystery about her, which I maintain throughout a majority of the story line, which may be about three books in total, I think, at the moment. So there’s depth, action, adventure, a bit of historical references tied in with a good bundle of conspiracy theories too – which I initially thought added such a life-like quality to the plot and timeline, but now… well, yeah.

Things got a little too real, a little too close to home for me while writing this through 2019 into 2020 and since then, the waking nightmare has only continued. Hence my loss of motivation in really committing my mental energies and precious 3D time to this book/story.

It’s a lot less “fun” plotting out a story of a post apocalyptic world when you’re actually witnessing the crumbling descent of your present world, which could in fact lead to the future you thought you “made up”. It puts a real damper on my desire to imagine the details. Feels like I’m fueling the fire, in an intellectual, thought energy, etheric sort of way.

Our thoughts are powerful. Each one of us has the power to imagine and manifest that which we desire to create. This is our gift as humans, we are the makers of things, the surveyors of the beautiful, protectors of the small, pure and natural. At least, that is my opinion.

Why would anyone ever want to delegate off their most influential, personal form of power? The power to think for yourself, to be self aware, conscious and conscientious is the most basic and important form of currency your are bestowed with. And here we see people swapping it out for an artificial version. It is so disturbing to me. It signifies the deep rotting which is taking place within the depths of the shadows of this world, seeping up and out now because it has been allowed a fertile atmosphere to grow in.

One of the most nagging snags I see is the obvious falsehood of goodness and the over amplification of positive potentials only coming from this kind of technology. The mask of benevolence is one of the most dangerous weapons tyrants have access to. Yes, it is immoral and hard to pull off, but that doesn’t mean they won’t try it – and look, we have more than enough evidence collected now, by 2024, to see plainly that real safety, health and wellness were never at the center of Their protocols.

And this is the exact means I have developed and outlined in my book as the backstory leading up to the present story line. I wanted to make a very believable and clear history for the plot and so I wrote out a whole backdrop which actually evolved into the main character’s father’s life story and so I now have a story BEFORE the story, but it is relevant to the main plot line and has intermingling plot points, characters and secrets which unfold throughout. So in order to do all that, or well symptomatically from imagining the events from before, I ended up creating an entire long term plan of the take over. Remember, this was all before forced Covid jabs, before digital IDs went viral, before people started waking up to Agenda21 or any of those very real plans They have for Our world.

I had envisioned and plotted out a seemingly reasonable way which I thought a take over could/would happen. Long story short, I modeled the hypothetical methods off the very real lockstep pushes I’d researched and added in some likely factors and angles I thought have played roles and would continue to as we progress into the future.

But now, the unpleasant delivery sits on my doorstep, in real time. I feel as if I’m an ancestor to these characters in this near future story of mine, and their plot, survival and purpose are becoming more important than a fiction story just written for fun. I sense a graver message forming for myself.

Of course, stories are our chance to create scenes to our desire and showcase conversations, and endings/resolutions to conflicts in the way in which we want, for our own purposes, or for the reason of telling a certain side of an experience – so, I’m free to design any type of script I see fit, but now the gravity of my responsibility to choose a certain path and outcome has almost become a hangman’s noose, in essence. I feel as if I’m sealing our fate by establishing this post-computer age in which Humanity loses the desire to even be separate, organic beings and instead believes all life is for is the collection of digital points within a digital world. And yet, I know obviously, it is not me doing this to the collective, but someone by plugging in my creative energies, I feel slightly co-responsible, maybe that’s it.

In an attempt to cleanse myself of this strange guilty conscience mirage of a feeling, I must voice out my main concerns right here at the beginning. I wish to share these points ahead of and separate from my fictional novel because they are to be taken seriously. A lot of the points on my list are still totally hypothetical, but some are inching their way into our present reality (should be more accurately referred to as the public/commercial sectors) and even scarier, still, some have now actually come into being.

Below are the most obvious concerns I have with the entire scenario and therefore have chose to develop and discover while concocting the background story of my novel.

This list was by no means constructed in any particular order or fashion, I’m merely listing off the top of my head here, but of course I will start off with the more basic and front line impacts and progress downwards into more nuanced potentials.

• The merging of human and machine – organic and inorganic – always constitutes a moral battle because it can easily be interpreted as Man trying to play God and that is a dangerous tightrope walk to attempt with as broad a population as we have on Earth today.
  • For some, this kind of messing around with ordained and natural Life is going against the most ancient and sacred laws of the Divine – it means altering the way of things in a very direct manner and to most who do oppose this, it is seen as an act of defiance or an attempt at impacting negatively the Infinite Creator (however you choose to call this entity or idea is fine – we must all agree to disagree as we acknowledge the opposition we all face is against all & any forms of spiritual, organic, benevolent, goodness.)
  • It could very well be that this “battle” is real, and in my plot I have taken that into account as well. What will/could it mean for Humanity and human society in general, when we have the type of integrated technology not only jammed down our throats in the 3D world around us, but then straight inside our bodies, minds and souls? There is so much already to chew on, just here at this most basic level of assessment. And within that framing, I thought, well the majority/mainstream culture would need to be completely disconnected from their individuality and spirit in order for this type of escapist dystopia to ever come about and so I set out to plan for an amplification of the virtual dejection we’re already seeing consume the youngest generations, but gave it an extra push by setting the story line after the so-called point of Singularity, when computer AI tech surpasses mankind and we as humans are fully integrated with the current updates, systems, etc. This jump in tech and society allows me more creative wiggle room to build up this idea that Humanity in general does not care in the slightest about Man Before Singularity – they view it as irrelevant to their lives as we would view the people of the Middle Ages or when humans were “hunters/gatherers” They know nothing of Spirituality, Religion, any type of God or anything. Some even start to “believe” and are taught in their ‘schools’ that Humans never existed without the Net and that the Corps have always been in place – this I admit is a bit influenced by Orwell, but now that I see in real time the re-writing of American History I literally know where and how he wrote that book.
• Another major issue or potential pitfall I saw right away was the Do-Gooder approach and the way those involved in creating this tech could get caught up in the Saving Humanity line of reasoning. This excuse and blanket statement ignores the potential negative results at all costs and highlights, presents and promotes on those small positive points. My main character was born into the corporate hierarchy and is a lab scientist, like her mother. For the first part of her training and ‘career’ she is somewhat fooled by this premise and in the story she confesses to being blinding by thoughts of grandeur, seeing on the positives, and literally even had her mention being fooled by the hopes of capabilities like having the mRNA rewriting and correcting errors before they were passed on, totally eradicating and deleting certain hereditary diseases, etc. But, what she refused to admit to herself all the while was the very negative side effects and side measures taken by those in charge. There was supposed to be segregation between the health, consumer, and corporate sectors – which would mean certain types of chips and the tech used would vary based on what types of service the person needed to utilize. Those who wish to use the consumer or corp base versions would have minimal “health” applications or functions allowed on their ‘chip’, whereas those who need it to say, beat their heart for them, would have a more integrated version of this chip. Those who design this tech and work in their certain field/dept/genre refuse to acknowledge and admit that they are part of a very dangerous whole once it joins up. I believe if more knew the true end plan for Humanity, we would see the majority of the tech industry quit their jobs. Who would really work to enslave and degrade all future generations of humans?
• A big threat we must always be aware of is the ‘Boil the Frog’ technique – They love this one because the frog cooks itself basically. How does this apply to the immersion of computer/AI tech with human society you may ask? Well, it goes like this: first the ideas and tech are fringe, quirky and there is limited, exclusive interest. Then, they turn up the heat a bit, and create a consumer market base for it. Now they have an influx of interest from those slightly inner societal types like eccentric or creative types who already had some kind of personal intrigue in the tech. Those figures become absorbed into the Movement, creating more ‘heat’, turning the whole temp up yet again without any added pressure from above. The natural social market of trends and fads then picks up the momentum gathering and adds in the collective heat of their energy. Before you know it, there’s a new medial norm temperature set.
  • Adding the internet to your brain will first be voluntary, but presented as very desirable and valuable to the person – giving them an edge on others
  • Health and wellness implications will be glossed over, reported with extreme bias and all harmful/negative reactions will be ignored or swept under the rug as inevitable errors on the path to this super-healthy human/society
  • The initial versions will be marketed as removable and totally safe – they may even be removable at the first stages as I wrote into my novel – however we must all recognize and accept that the business model promoted with these chips is that they be in there forever and that humans will, from here on forward, always need access to the tech and digital world that comes along with it.
  • Once the tech is inside you, they’ve got you – they have backdoored everything since day one, please don’t think for a moment that these chips are not simply an open gate for the State or whoever monitors such tech.
    • Once tech is inside you, you must comply with their requirements – there is no way to revoke consent or disassociate once it is implanted into you. In my novel, this gets run through a very basic model of consumerism, and of course results in required upgrades for the software and/or tech hardware and when you cannot afford the upgrade the chip no longer works and you’re disconnected/dead
    • You are looped in you once you take the first round
• Another angle that I accounted for in my novel, and see as a real potential anchor point for the agenda, will be the line of reasoning that comes when the business/corp sector start to integrate the tech into their transactions. Once their productivity, sales, profitability and all that nonsense start to be “burdened” by non-digital transaction, we will have a serious push to get the majority of society into the digital realm. Once businesses start operating there, and expecting employees to adhere and join in there – we will see a tidal wave crash over the consumer market, especially in retail and banking – you won’t be allowed to transact in their business without first being linked into their digital model.
  • In my fictional backstory, there was a huge propaganda campaign against all people who were skeptical and refused the chips. The media/society dubbed them ‘snails’ because compared to the digital, instant world – there 3D real world based interactions were way too slow and outdated. Stores begin to complain about anyone who doesn’t have the chip – much like you see some cashiers role their eyes when you pull out cash these days.
  • Once those in power decide the ‘regular’ people are an inconvenience to their newly established system, what do you think they will do? Peacefully allow a counterculture to survive on the fringes, steadily resisting their imposition? I doubt it. Again, in my novel, the line of thinking is making real life so uncomfortable and inconvenient that people just buckle in and get the chip and become a part of their digital, hologram state. They even go so far as to fence off or destroy completely the public outdoor spaces where the snails end up setting up camps to live. This is all done under the guise of ‘cleaning up the city’ of course. And the People are hooked into their net on their chips and have no means to even observe or see what is actually taking place in the outside world. They are fed an image of the world, much like the movie the Matrix explains Neo’s life inside there. No one on the inside can talk to or tell what’s happening in the outside world, and obviously none of the unchipped people can access the net – except I do have a few glitch characters, which I will not get into at all here.
• The final issue I’d like to highlight, for now, is the general devaluing of the life experience, and by extension each unique, independent human’s life. It’s my belief that this is the root cause of today’s conundrum and as such, I’ve made it one of the main underlying themes I’m developing within this story. Why do we feel as if we are not enough as created? Our physical bodies themselves are not only works of art that are aesthetically pleasing to our eyes and minds but they are also full of systems of life across all types of layers of consciousness, processing or completing an infinite variety of tasks, 24/7 for the entire duration of our lives here. The ‘technology’ of our vessels is far more complex than any computer we could think up. How can we be so ungrateful as to seek out inorganic, fake copies of what we’ve already got and dare to call it better than? It’s silly really – but there you have it, a spoiled child will always want more. Let’s wake up to what we are, what we’re enabling and what we’ve consented to up until now and say no more, not again, never again. I hope it doesn’t take bringing humanity and society to the brink of collapse in order to finally get the point, but certainly in my novel it does.

Thanks so much if you read this entire rant and ramble. I truly appreciate your audience, time and energy spent reading! If you’ve got an opinion on this new implant and what ripples it has sent and will continue sending out – I’d love to hear it! Feel free to leave a reply here or send me an email directly third.eye.navigation@protonmail.com